Happy 37th Birthday 2 Me!
This past year, and every morning I woke up and couldn’t help but look in the mirror and ask: “Who are you and what have you done with the REAL Blanca?!” I’m in a critical situation where an uninvited process (age) suddenly from nowhere and with no advanced invitation, notice or reservation has somehow crash-landed on my face! I’m on a may-day trail for that infamous “fountain of youth” and an endless search to see if anyone has in fact found it! But to my sadness and agony, the jury’s still out on that one, though many “founders” are making a buck or two from those clueless souls. Meanwhile, I’m going down the Google search results of “the best organic rejuvenating beauty products you haven’t tried” and why is that? Because until today, I had NO NEED for one and today simultaneously I have a need for them all! All this effort for the mostly seen part of me…. My beautiful face!!
That’s just part of the chaos that surrounds the aging process. Because there’s just absolutely nothing else to worry about, right? The remainder of the deteriorating body that continues to do weird things, like refuse to slim down, no matter how many tacos I intake, or how many miles I lose count of in the midst of friendly chatter through the neighborhood with friends, a growing foot dilemma that keeps me from actually wearing nice footwear with my knockout outfits, because shoes never fit just right! Not to mention, “body enhancement garments” aka girdles that refuse to clip or stay put in doing their ultimate job which is to hide that bulge! Just keeping track of all these “extra” bulges and keeping them tucked, actually does help lose an ounce or two in sweat from “sucking it in”, so in a way, there is something to look forward to after all!
So no one ever told me that one day, when I finally notice that first wrinkle, that first grey hair on my head, that first bulge that won’t budge, that I would scream in disbelief (and scare the neighbors) that I would still be beautiful beyond recognition. The beauty that will still keep my lover in awe; that keeps my parents proud and my siblings glad to have me as their sister. That my children would know of no better person to snuggle with to read with them their favorite books, covered in their favorite blanket and holding their treasured pals. It is amazing to know that through all the physical flaws I (we) directly see in the mirror, I fail to focus on the beauty and flawlessness God sees in me and each of us, His creation. I am sure I disappoint Him time and again, but in reality I am perfect in His eyes. And if I could see the special blessings and abundant Love around me, those tid-bits that actually do matter and that make an impact in my life and those around me and continue to focus in enhancing those areas of my life, I would be at ease with myself and with my soul.
If in fact I could go back to that energetic, sarcastic and free spirited 20-something of long ago, I would say: “Enjoy, absorb and learn”. No matter what you do, what you say, what you think, where you go, or who you meet, it’s all part of a transformation on whom you will become…everyday is a stepping stone towards tomorrow, almost like the most complex math, what you learn today, will be applied in tomorrow’s lesson, so don’t skip a step! Life doesn’t end, it just ‘evolves’ into shaping and molding you and your lineage from today forward. The life experiences will become intense; situations will become complex; relationships will become bitter-sweet but always worthwhile; friendships will deepen, some may vanish; the achievements will be rewarding by the minute; the valleys will test you on how low you can go; the earnings will be plentiful; the losses will be great; and you will surpass it all with flying colors with the right outlook, with the right attitude and with the right source, and lucky for me, I have been plugged in to the greatest Power Source on the planet…God.
For the endless love, for my family, for my friends, for my health, for simply ME… I give you thanks Oh Lord!